2017年6月28日星期三

Feed The Mommy——Cheat Pizza or Wrap

When I cook for only myself, I like to cook as simple as possible, least effort required but still taste good.

I always turn to my mom (if I'm cooking Chinese food) and Pinterest if I need any inspiration. As I've taken too much pasta (and bacon!) in the previous weeks, last week I bought a packet of wrap, and there goes my life with cheat pizzas and wrap for lunch.

Cheat pizza is great, but I have no imagination and only made tuna pizza. That's absolutely boring. So I go to Pinterest and search for pizza toppings. And boy oh boy, I never regret!

Mushrooms, Cherry Tomato and Spinach on Sundried Tomato Pesto

Easiest of all
I've got this idea from here. I've always loved sundried tomato pesto but never have I thought of using it as the base of the cheat pizza.

I did not have basil, I used baby spinach to ensure I have my daily greens. I actually top baby spinach on the pizza after it's done baking but it wasn't show in the picture.

Instead of using just Parmesan, I used my premixed package of cheese, with cheddar, Parmesan and Mozzarella, used primarily for baking. I think this premix is the life saver for people like me who do not want to grate the cheese myself.

Smoked Salmon and Avocado Pizza

Colourful combi

A closer look
I've got this idea from here.

And again I made some changes on my own, based on whatever I have. I didn't have dill so I skipped it. I didn't mix the cream cheese with garlic, instead I just spread them separately in layers on top of my wrap. I used my premixed cheese, I didn't add onions because I was feeling lazy, I didn't have rocket leaves so again I used baby spinach.

Love every bite of this pizza! Will definitely do this again when there's any promotion on avocado!

Roasted Vege Wrap with Avocado

All the greens, made me feel so healthy :P
I've got this idea from here.

But if you noticed, the author of the page says avocado dip. Mine? It's just avocado. I was too lazy to whip up the dip and I like avocado, I'm confident that with just plain avocado it'll taste good too. And I'm right.

I didn't quite like cauliflower so I replaced with broccoli, I didn't have chili powder, garam masala etc, so I seasoned the chickpeas and broccoli with only pepper, salt and mixed herbs.

As you can see from the picture above, I made so much fillings, my wrap cannot be wrapper and I ended up eating it like a pizza 😅

Buy a packet of wrap (always buy garlic flavoured!) and give it a try! It's soo sooo soooooo convenient and you can still make yourself healthy meal.

2017年6月17日星期六

有苦自己知

最近和一位大学同学联络上,联络上的原因就是我频频在脸书和Instagram PO自己书写或涂鸦的一些卡片。没想到有时候这些卡片会引起一点点小注意,就有朋友开始问我,怎么做的,该买什么样的笔,等等的问题。

就是这张食谱卡

我想比较仔细地回答他,就私下联系。聊着聊着,她说我很棒,一人照顾两个还可以有自己的时间,做自己爱做的事。我苦笑,放在网上的往往是一些美好的画面,混乱的、低落的、不高兴的……脸书上往往都不会出现。都是报喜不报忧。所以,有苦自己知啊。

那种为孩子的焦虑,那种问天为什么对他不公平、那种四处奔跑只为能给他的现状一点帮助、那种一带二四处奔跑得累、那种一发烧好像天要塌下来的担忧、那种频频质问自己哪里做错了、那种对小女儿每一小动作都很在意,希望那一切正常的压力……

在重重的压力之下,我有时候会发脾气、有时候会流眼泪、有时候会很低落。

有时候,很寂寞。

在这样的情况之下,我要是不给自己一点呼吸的空间。不让自己做点自己爱做的事,恐怕那颗心承受不了。做了让自己开心点,照顾孩子也可以顾得好一点。

况且,一技之长,学一学,不知道以后会不会用上?(厚脸皮)

老公不在家时常常会出现的画面,更严重的都有,老公没在,没人给我拍下

我也有这样的一天,用youtube来顾孩子 ~_~;
之前,我对于把大儿子送去托儿所全天有点过意不去。觉得自己明明就在家里,还把他送去。现在,在托儿所全天已经半个月了。我的思想也改变了。其实,他去整天或许对我、对他、对妹妹是好事。(对老公的口袋是坏事)

对我,我可以比较轻松的面对。不需要每天都紧紧张张的过完一天。至少我只紧张早上和傍晚时分。

对他,他有更多的活动。如果在家里,我忙着看顾他两,还有家务,还要煮三餐,都是在survivor mode中度过,根本就没有时间给他活动。而且,现在在学校都肯睡午觉了,心里稍微安慰一点。

对妹妹,更是好事。至少妹妹每一天有一段时间,可以和我好好相处。像哥哥一样,拥有和妈妈在一起的亲子时间。而不是躺在一旁,等我忙忙忙。

之前有位网友在脸书上,对把教养孩子的事情交给别人这个课题发表很多言论。虽然我知道他不是在说我(我们现实生活中完全不认识),但我还是对号入座了。我其实很想发言,很想告诉他,你家里没有一个特殊孩子,你不明白有时候我们就是需要专人来帮我们,然后教导我们应该怎样教养他,处理生活各个方面的问题。但我终究没有发言,因为我不喜欢告诉别人,我家有个折翼天使。

虚拟世界里的我,过得好像很轻松自在。

其实真的,有苦自己知。

2017年6月14日星期三

Feed The Mommy——My Very Own Version of Carbonara

I like carbonara, but I haven't been eating for a long time due to my pregnancy. (The egg used in carbonara is not fully cooked) Actually, pregnancy is not the only reason, I can't feed my son half cooked eggs too, so I actually haven't been eating carbonara for a long time!

I used to cook carbonara using Jamie Oliver's recipe. I roughly remember how, but I wanted to be sure so I tried to search for it. But I can't find it! Dang! So instead, I browsed around a few other websites, and decided to just make up my own.

And you know what? I like my version, so much so I'd like to write it down for my future reference.

Carbonara and a cup of decaf

Ingredients:

  1. Two slices of streaky bacon
  2. Two cloves of garlic
  3. A handful of baby spinach
  4. An egg
  5. Mixture of parmesan, cheddar, mozarella and feta cheese
  6. A tablespoon of cooking cream
  7. Pasta of your choice
Method:
  1. Separate egg white and yolk.
  2. Add the cheese mixture and cream into the egg white.
  3. Dice the bacon and mince the garlic.
  4. Cook the pasta as per instructed on the packet and fry the bacon.
  5. As the oil from streaky bacon ooze out, add the garlic into the pan.
  6. At the last minute of your pasta cooking, add the spinach (you do not want to overcook them, so one minute is just nice)
  7. Drain the water from your pasta and spinach, keep some pasta water. 
  8. Add the pasta and spinach into the pan, stir them well so the pasta would soak the delicious bacon oil.
  9. Take the pan off the heat.
  10. Slowly pour the egg white and cheese mixture in and stir them well. (If you think it's too thick, you can add a little pasta water you keep, I usually don't)
  11. Serve the pasta in a plate, make a small hole in the middle and place the egg yolk.
  12. Stir the pasta and egg yolk well before you eat, the heat from the pasta will cook the egg.
Tadaa~~~ 

I really like how creamy this pasta is. Besides, a plate of good carbonara and coffee for lunch, makes it feel like I'm having a luxury me time in a cafe! (Even though I'm just really rushing off to cook myself a meal when baby is sleeping!)

2017年5月14日星期日

Happy Mother's Day


In the past 31 months of being a mother, I have never really thought too much about future. It struck me the other day when I was in shower, that these two babies in the house are going to stick with me forever! Like how my mom is stuck with us.

F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

Family, a group of people whom we grow up with, without ever given a choice.

You can unfriend a friend.
You can befriend an enemy.
You can breakup with your boyfriend/girlfriend.
You can divorce your partner.
You can resign from you employer.
You can hate an idol you used to love.

There are so many relationships in your world that you can chose to be involved, but not family. And of all, the bond between a parent to children has to be the most intimate of all.

Whether she's a terrible mother or a terrific mother, she's always going to be your mother, forever.
Whether he's a terrible father or a terrific father, he's always going to be your father, forever.
Whether your children are naughty or nice, they will always be your children, forever.

No return policy. Not even customer service to complain.

As a relatively new mother, just a few months shy from 3 years, I really hope I did okay and will do better! And I know everybody says the same and I'm still going to say it, you only realised how much your mother went through when you're one!

Happy Mother's Day!

2017年4月26日星期三

进步了,微笑了

怀孕的时候,会想象以后怎样怎样带孩子。牵着他的小手去游乐场,在草场上追逐,在家里用诺大张的画纸胡乱涂鸦,踏青看花看草看小鸟……种种的美好画面,至今都还没有实现。

说没有心灰是自欺欺人的。但日子总要过,漫漫长路还是得对自己好一点。Happy Mommy, Happy Family。自己要不放宽心,连累家人就不好。这些日子以来,还是要称赞枕边人的坚强,往往在我面对不了的时候,鼓励我。最重要的一句话,“自己都照顾不好自己,怎样照顾好他?”

眼泪吞下去,日子一样过。

去年从新西兰回来,决定小孩不可以再这样下去,积极的寻找治疗。Early intervention七月开始,Physiotherapy 十月开始。一路走来,进步不少。从不敢走路,变成牵着手走路。从只敢在室内走路,慢慢延伸到室外。从到游乐场哭哭啼啼,到现在在不抗拒(还是不玩,但至少不哭)。

以前一直不明白为什么他不肯走,会走了还是捉得实实的不放手。后来才知道,是缺乏信心。我甚至怀疑,他是自卑吗?年纪这么小,会感到自卑吗?

曾经有一位长辈,看着别的小孩跑来跑去,就跟小子说:“你看别人都跑了,你还要抱抱。”我听了很气,但不可以发火,只好以我最平静的口气说,不可以这样说,每个小孩都是不一样的。千万别以为他听不懂,他不说话,但什么都懂。即使你无意,还是会伤他弱小的心灵。

对,他是慢。但贵在努力,贵在有进步。他的每一个小进步,我们都开心的庆祝。我们的努力没有白费,老师们和治疗师们的功劳也不小。

漫漫长路,孩子,加油!

还记得上一次带他和朋友的小孩一起在这里玩,玩得他哭哭啼啼的

最喜欢玩水,雨天好开心

一路走回家,对身边的事物一样一样的研究

很喜欢学校的秋千

今天他勇敢的在室外走来走去,今天由他主导我们的路线

我要坚强,为自己,为两个小瓜。

2017年3月11日星期六

为母则强

一天里面发生了三次痉挛。

第一次,在他的睡梦中。我刚好醒着,帮小妹妹换尿片。听见一声不象他平时会发出的声音,心里一沉,马上知道什么事情。

第二次,已经从医院急诊室回来,睡了一觉,喝了一瓶奶。看卡通,我确保没有发烧,就吃饭去,要爸陪他,结果,他再度发出那种声音(爸爸以为他看戏兴奋),又痉挛,送院。

第三次,在医院里,我已经撑不住,歇斯底里的对着护士和医生喊叫。

一天里面三次,即使你已经看过痉挛很多遍,一分钟都是太长。

今天他的情况改进不少,我躺在床上陪他。听见隔壁的小孩告诉拜访的亲友:“Last night the baby beside me almost died.”。是的,我的哭声,我的喊叫声,是谁都会以为是那回事。当我看着他痉挛三次,一天里面三次,我也以为我会失去他。叫一个小小的身躯怎样承受这种痛苦?

上网读到的一些父母分享的事,心里更加难受。就是,小孩晚上痉挛,睡梦中没人知道,隔天起床,孩子已经走了。即使医生常常说发高烧痉挛是很普遍的事,那么死亡呢?是不是有更好的方法来避免?是不是有更好的方法来第一时间发现并急救?

再普遍的症状,看在父母眼里都是一种痛。我成长以来,从来都不在父母面前哭。昨天撑不住了,抱着妈妈哭。无助啊,很无助,你很想帮他,你很爱他,你很怕失去他,可是苦于,“这是很普遍的现象,但至今没有方法治疗”。

昨天真的很想狠狠的在墙上送一拳……或者打爆什么,或者大力把玻璃瓶子扔碎的冲动……

为母则强?

我不知道,强不起来,只希望一切他顺利健康的成长。