2017年8月13日星期日

我要更勇敢面对

大儿子是迟缓儿,已经不是新闻。

从一开始,就是一味的避开,认为他应该是慢啊,可能会跟上。到后来看医生,开始各种各样的治疗。再后来,慢慢把心放开,跟好朋友说得开来。

但是,我始终踏不出去的,就是在更多普通朋友面前,放开的承认这件事。

我是没有必要做这个交代,我生活里的事其实没有欠任何人。但是心里总觉得,如果我可以更放开的,摊开的,那我就进一步克服我的心理障碍。

我正在慢慢的迈入这个阶段。

慢慢的

慢慢的

我可以的

迷恋的望着好久不见的大姨

他最爱我们逛街买吃的

无奈的,蓝莓一下子被吃光了

这个进步得来不易,上学确实是好事

妹妹很可爱,妹妹的加入,慢慢的带给哥哥一点点的刺激。希望这样也会刺激他的进度

2017年6月30日星期五

Stop! Just Stop!

Few days ago, I saw some random sharing on Facebook, of a woman breastfeeding her baby in Parlimen while delivering her speech. And whoever that shared the series of photos captioned the post, asking women to stop giving themselves excuses to leave their career and dreams behind to take care of their children, and only think about sweeping the floor and keep the house clean (something along this line).

This caption, needless to say, makes me uncomfortable.

While I think the mother's action is great and inspiring, I think it's not ok to shame mothers that stay at home to take care of their children.

There's NOTHING wrong to stay at home to take care of the children.

Let me say this again, NOTHING's WRONG!

We do NOT give up our dreams for nothing. It's for the kids, for the family. And who says we do not have our dreams, we have, we just hit a PAUSE for now, we'll get back to it when the kids grow up and care for themselves better. And sometimes, in between the "seems impossible to have time" me-time, we do our best to improve ourselves, work a little towards our dreams.

Trust me when I tell you all mothers who decided to stay at home took a big step. It's one of the hardest decision they have ever made and they took A BLOODY LONG time to decide this is it.

And sometimes mothers still feel a bit of self conscious, so it's no help when you shame them by saying "only think about sweeping the floor"! Excuse me, someone has to do the dirty job anyway!

Everybody has reasons behind the decision that you may not understand.

Please share some love, working mothers or stay at home mothers, they're all about hard work, dedication and love to the family.

Shame no more.

2017年6月28日星期三

Feed The Mommy——Cheat Pizza or Wrap

When I cook for only myself, I like to cook as simple as possible, least effort required but still taste good.

I always turn to my mom (if I'm cooking Chinese food) and Pinterest if I need any inspiration. As I've taken too much pasta (and bacon!) in the previous weeks, last week I bought a packet of wrap, and there goes my life with cheat pizzas and wrap for lunch.

Cheat pizza is great, but I have no imagination and only made tuna pizza. That's absolutely boring. So I go to Pinterest and search for pizza toppings. And boy oh boy, I never regret!

Mushrooms, Cherry Tomato and Spinach on Sundried Tomato Pesto

Easiest of all
I've got this idea from here. I've always loved sundried tomato pesto but never have I thought of using it as the base of the cheat pizza.

I did not have basil, I used baby spinach to ensure I have my daily greens. I actually top baby spinach on the pizza after it's done baking but it wasn't show in the picture.

Instead of using just Parmesan, I used my premixed package of cheese, with cheddar, Parmesan and Mozzarella, used primarily for baking. I think this premix is the life saver for people like me who do not want to grate the cheese myself.

Smoked Salmon and Avocado Pizza

Colourful combi

A closer look
I've got this idea from here.

And again I made some changes on my own, based on whatever I have. I didn't have dill so I skipped it. I didn't mix the cream cheese with garlic, instead I just spread them separately in layers on top of my wrap. I used my premixed cheese, I didn't add onions because I was feeling lazy, I didn't have rocket leaves so again I used baby spinach.

Love every bite of this pizza! Will definitely do this again when there's any promotion on avocado!

Roasted Vege Wrap with Avocado

All the greens, made me feel so healthy :P
I've got this idea from here.

But if you noticed, the author of the page says avocado dip. Mine? It's just avocado. I was too lazy to whip up the dip and I like avocado, I'm confident that with just plain avocado it'll taste good too. And I'm right.

I didn't quite like cauliflower so I replaced with broccoli, I didn't have chili powder, garam masala etc, so I seasoned the chickpeas and broccoli with only pepper, salt and mixed herbs.

As you can see from the picture above, I made so much fillings, my wrap cannot be wrapper and I ended up eating it like a pizza 😅

Buy a packet of wrap (always buy garlic flavoured!) and give it a try! It's soo sooo soooooo convenient and you can still make yourself healthy meal.

2017年6月17日星期六

有苦自己知

最近和一位大学同学联络上,联络上的原因就是我频频在脸书和Instagram PO自己书写或涂鸦的一些卡片。没想到有时候这些卡片会引起一点点小注意,就有朋友开始问我,怎么做的,该买什么样的笔,等等的问题。

就是这张食谱卡

我想比较仔细地回答他,就私下联系。聊着聊着,她说我很棒,一人照顾两个还可以有自己的时间,做自己爱做的事。我苦笑,放在网上的往往是一些美好的画面,混乱的、低落的、不高兴的……脸书上往往都不会出现。都是报喜不报忧。所以,有苦自己知啊。

那种为孩子的焦虑,那种问天为什么对他不公平、那种四处奔跑只为能给他的现状一点帮助、那种一带二四处奔跑得累、那种一发烧好像天要塌下来的担忧、那种频频质问自己哪里做错了、那种对小女儿每一小动作都很在意,希望那一切正常的压力……

在重重的压力之下,我有时候会发脾气、有时候会流眼泪、有时候会很低落。

有时候,很寂寞。

在这样的情况之下,我要是不给自己一点呼吸的空间。不让自己做点自己爱做的事,恐怕那颗心承受不了。做了让自己开心点,照顾孩子也可以顾得好一点。

况且,一技之长,学一学,不知道以后会不会用上?(厚脸皮)

老公不在家时常常会出现的画面,更严重的都有,老公没在,没人给我拍下

我也有这样的一天,用youtube来顾孩子 ~_~;
之前,我对于把大儿子送去托儿所全天有点过意不去。觉得自己明明就在家里,还把他送去。现在,在托儿所全天已经半个月了。我的思想也改变了。其实,他去整天或许对我、对他、对妹妹是好事。(对老公的口袋是坏事)

对我,我可以比较轻松的面对。不需要每天都紧紧张张的过完一天。至少我只紧张早上和傍晚时分。

对他,他有更多的活动。如果在家里,我忙着看顾他两,还有家务,还要煮三餐,都是在survivor mode中度过,根本就没有时间给他活动。而且,现在在学校都肯睡午觉了,心里稍微安慰一点。

对妹妹,更是好事。至少妹妹每一天有一段时间,可以和我好好相处。像哥哥一样,拥有和妈妈在一起的亲子时间。而不是躺在一旁,等我忙忙忙。

之前有位网友在脸书上,对把教养孩子的事情交给别人这个课题发表很多言论。虽然我知道他不是在说我(我们现实生活中完全不认识),但我还是对号入座了。我其实很想发言,很想告诉他,你家里没有一个特殊孩子,你不明白有时候我们就是需要专人来帮我们,然后教导我们应该怎样教养他,处理生活各个方面的问题。但我终究没有发言,因为我不喜欢告诉别人,我家有个折翼天使。

虚拟世界里的我,过得好像很轻松自在。

其实真的,有苦自己知。

2017年6月14日星期三

Feed The Mommy——My Very Own Version of Carbonara

I like carbonara, but I haven't been eating for a long time due to my pregnancy. (The egg used in carbonara is not fully cooked) Actually, pregnancy is not the only reason, I can't feed my son half cooked eggs too, so I actually haven't been eating carbonara for a long time!

I used to cook carbonara using Jamie Oliver's recipe. I roughly remember how, but I wanted to be sure so I tried to search for it. But I can't find it! Dang! So instead, I browsed around a few other websites, and decided to just make up my own.

And you know what? I like my version, so much so I'd like to write it down for my future reference.

Carbonara and a cup of decaf

Ingredients:

  1. Two slices of streaky bacon
  2. Two cloves of garlic
  3. A handful of baby spinach
  4. An egg
  5. Mixture of parmesan, cheddar, mozarella and feta cheese
  6. A tablespoon of cooking cream
  7. Pasta of your choice
Method:
  1. Separate egg white and yolk.
  2. Add the cheese mixture and cream into the egg white.
  3. Dice the bacon and mince the garlic.
  4. Cook the pasta as per instructed on the packet and fry the bacon.
  5. As the oil from streaky bacon ooze out, add the garlic into the pan.
  6. At the last minute of your pasta cooking, add the spinach (you do not want to overcook them, so one minute is just nice)
  7. Drain the water from your pasta and spinach, keep some pasta water. 
  8. Add the pasta and spinach into the pan, stir them well so the pasta would soak the delicious bacon oil.
  9. Take the pan off the heat.
  10. Slowly pour the egg white and cheese mixture in and stir them well. (If you think it's too thick, you can add a little pasta water you keep, I usually don't)
  11. Serve the pasta in a plate, make a small hole in the middle and place the egg yolk.
  12. Stir the pasta and egg yolk well before you eat, the heat from the pasta will cook the egg.
Tadaa~~~ 

I really like how creamy this pasta is. Besides, a plate of good carbonara and coffee for lunch, makes it feel like I'm having a luxury me time in a cafe! (Even though I'm just really rushing off to cook myself a meal when baby is sleeping!)

2017年5月14日星期日

Happy Mother's Day


In the past 31 months of being a mother, I have never really thought too much about future. It struck me the other day when I was in shower, that these two babies in the house are going to stick with me forever! Like how my mom is stuck with us.

F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

Family, a group of people whom we grow up with, without ever given a choice.

You can unfriend a friend.
You can befriend an enemy.
You can breakup with your boyfriend/girlfriend.
You can divorce your partner.
You can resign from you employer.
You can hate an idol you used to love.

There are so many relationships in your world that you can chose to be involved, but not family. And of all, the bond between a parent to children has to be the most intimate of all.

Whether she's a terrible mother or a terrific mother, she's always going to be your mother, forever.
Whether he's a terrible father or a terrific father, he's always going to be your father, forever.
Whether your children are naughty or nice, they will always be your children, forever.

No return policy. Not even customer service to complain.

As a relatively new mother, just a few months shy from 3 years, I really hope I did okay and will do better! And I know everybody says the same and I'm still going to say it, you only realised how much your mother went through when you're one!

Happy Mother's Day!